Ella was going to our first baby. We dreamed of her for so long and when God finally blessed us with her we couldn’t have been more excited. I’d spend hours organizing her room, reading her books, and playing music to my belly just to feel her wiggle a little. But what I particularly enjoyed was spending time in the kitchen. I’d spend as much time in there as my swollen ankles would let me. Dreaming about how in just a few short weeks I’d have Ella here to help me.

She was so loved (and still is loved) and we were so looking forward to growing our family. I would be lying to you if I said I understand why this happened, that I’m ok with her being with God, or that this was God’s plan, because I don’t. I don’t understand how an innocent little angel like her could have been taken from us. I don’t understand at all, but I have faith. I have faith that one day I will see my sweet girl again. And until then I want to continue to do what I love and continue to honor my sweet girl by not giving up on my dreams. She would have been here beside me and I know that until we meet again she will be beside me in spirit. Please pray for our sweet angel. She is the best thing that has ever happened to me and even though I was with her for only a short time, she has changed me forever.